I cannot believe it! We are leaving in three days. THREE days. I can honestly say that I am kind of anxious (Swedish: Jag har RESFEBER). Traveling alone is one thing but traveling with a child is something different. I have no experience with that at all. I have to be calm and focus on Max. I love him so much and I want him to have a good flight (good flights). Currently I am working on what to put in my carry-on luggage.

I feel very fortunate and happy that I get to go home to Sweden and visit family and friends. At the same time I feel sad that I am leaving Carson behind. I know we spend every day of the year together but Christmas is a special time to celebrate with family. I feel bad about leaving him here alone. He can take care of himself but still... He understands that it is important for me to go home and "recharge" as he put it. I love him for that. I will make sure to bring back very special gifts from me and Max. We will have a special "coming back from Sweden" celebration when we get back.